the party is over.

so i initially wrote today's blog with sadness... after being surrounded by people for weeks and celebrating my birthday many times, everyone has gone home and i'm by myself in my apartment thinking about what it looks like to get back to real life... and honestly not being real excited. just about everything that i was anticipating has now happened and i'm left with laundry and dishes to clean up.

and someone just reminded me that i'm not alone in this. God is with me. so what does that look like? i think the first thing that makes me think of is His purpose for my life. He has purpose for me TODAY and tomorrow and the day after. and maybe some of that purpose it to reflect a bit today... to take some time to rest in Him.

i knew that going to greece and israel would change me. and i also knew that i wouldn't know how until i got back. so i'm thinking about what's different. i think i'm inspired by reality. that sounds kind of funny probably. seeing the reality of the via delarosa or the remains of corinth or the wind on the sea of galilee is like God telling me "i am real. i have a plan that i've been working on for eternity. and i will use you in it." it was like connecting to history made my present real. i want to love people harder. i want to breathe in each moment with the same awe as i did in israel, because PRAISE GOD, He is the same here in my little apartment as He is in the Holy Land.

to be continued as i continue to process...